I've been a little incognito for the past couple of months. I've barely tweeted, ventured onto Facebook, or even participated in forums like I normally do. The reason for this? Personal, important, and something that not a lot of people talk openly about.
My husband and I are going through an in vitro fertilization (IVF) cycle.
It's amazing to me how little people know about it. The first thing people usually think of is Octomom, or test tube babies. But the reality of the process is fascinating, terrifying, and completely amazing.
|Day 5 blastocyst - From Wikimedia Commons|
The short answer? Nothing. Though we've seen five or six different reproductive specialists, no one has ever been able to pinpoint the reason we've been unsuccessful. All our tests come back as normal. We fell into the category of unexplained infertility, which is a pretty sucky category.
So, what have I been up to for the last two months? Shots. Shots and shots and more shots. That I had to give myself, every night, for weeks on end. For two weeks, there were two shots a night. And those shots were loaded with crazy-making hormones, hormones that made my ovaries swell and make multiple eggs, hormones that made me want to punch people upside the face.
But they worked. We got 9 eggs, and 8 of those were mature. 7 of them fertilized. And last week, two of them were transferred back into me.
So now, we wait. There are more hormones, which I'm taking as a good sign. I want to kick my husband in the teeth, which I'm told is also a good sign. I'm being as calm and happy and healthy as I possibly can be, telling these little cauliflower-looking cells to keep growing, grab hold, and stick around for the next 40 weeks or so.
My husband held my hand and we watched on the ultrasound screen as our little embryos were transferred into my uterus.
"See that white dot on the screen there? Your embryos are right there."
My husband's voice was soft as he said, "Isn't life amazing?"
It very much is.
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