I love to travel! Correction, I love to explore new places and see new things. The thing I don’t like is traveling. I don’t like driving, trains make me nervous, ships cause seasickness, and planes… well planes are the worst. Those little cylinders of death scare the living you know what out of me. Yes, I am ashamed to admit it, but I am afraid of flying.
You know the really embarrassing part? I’m a psychologist! Shouldn’t I of all people be able to cure myself of this phobia? Well, let me say I did try. One theory on curing a phobia is using a technique called flooding. That is when you expose the phobic person to the thing he or she is afraid of for a long time. The theory is that the person will not be able to sustain a terror reaction forever, and will eventually relax and realize it’s not so bad.
So I booked a trip to Europe – non-stop. I figured a nine hour flight should certainly be able to cure me. I boarded the plane with much fear and trembling and much to my dismay discovered… yes, I CAN sustain a terror response for a nine freaking hour plane flight. I did enjoy myself in Europe (though I almost became an expatriate due to my fear of flying back home!) but that was my first and (to date) only trip to Europe.
Since that time I have still traveled, but I have kept my cruising altitude at zero feet. I’ve gone by car, I’ve gone by train, but by golly I’ve gone by ground. Trouble is, my debut book is set in Scotland. Beautiful, romantic Scotland, full of thrilling castles and gorgeous scenery. Check out Joanne’s blog from yesterday – that’s my dream trip (even with the broken down car)! See these beautiful pictures of Scotland? Someone else took them, because I’ve never been there. I’ve dreamed of it, wrote a whole book about it, but I’ve never actually seen it. And unless I face my fear I never will.
Everyone needs a dream – even if it’s scary. For me, showing someone else my writing was something that terrified me for the longest time. Yet I faced that fear and now my debut book is out there in the world for anyone and everyone to read. It’s still a bit scary, but it was totally worth it! Maybe that flooding idea works after all…
What’s one thing you really want to do, even if it frightens you?